Friday, October 17, 2008

Grumpy, Grumpy

I am a tad bit grumpy. Poor Bo. I don't want to be, but there you have it, I am. I think it's due to the fact that I'm up in the night, so I don't get good sleep, and also because of the hormones. Who knows. All I know is that I have a few things bugging me.

We are back in Galveston. It feels like a ghost town. What am I supposed to do with Carter to keep him entertained? The museums and parks are closed. Even McDonald's with the play area is closed. If I want to do anything the best option is to get off the island. Good thing gas prices are going down. I don't think anyone can imagine what it's like here. It's definetly a must see to understand thing. Bo was commenting on how the town looks worse now then it did during the Look and Leave. This is because now not only are buildings wrecked, but now all the buildings and houses have been gutted and there is garbage EVERYWHERE. Not only that but half of the plants are dead because of the seawater. sad day.

The other thing that has been making me grumpy is Megan's eating habits. Carter was a chugger. He loved LOVED to eat. The moment he saw that he was about to eat he would flip out with impatience to get some food. He ate fast though. 10 minutes and he was done. He would then take the binky and go straight to sleep. But Megan?? NOOOO. This little girl likes to take her sweet time. She wants to eat, but does it slowly. That and she isn't in such a rush to get food because she's all about being chill. It's killing me. I'm impatient. I have things to do. Instead I am stuck on the couch or whatever feeding her for an indefinite amount of time. AHHHH. That and she won't take a pacifier which is also killing me because guess what is the only thing she will take??? I'm not enjoying this nursing thing.

To be honest I've never wanted to nurse. Call me crazy, but I just wasn't down with it. Bo big time insisted though, so here I am, nursing my second child all day long. I guess it's not that big of deal that there's nothing to do here since I'm stuck feeding my child all day. I love you Megan, but honestly!

So no sleep and being stuck all day feeding the child, PLUS the pain, makes me a grumpy chica. I'm working on it though. I promise to be happier.

Bo is so cute. He's reading this and just told me that he doesn't think I'm that grumpy. This makes me feel good, but I think he might be lying.

11 comments:

Serena said...

Cass, hang in there! I can't imagine what Galveston is like right now. They still don't even have rotations there yet. So we up and moved last minute to Temple 2 days ago (they decided we couldn't do our surgery rotation in Utah, blah). Life is insane. We may have found a place to live starting Monday, fingers crossed, but we need to buy everything from utensils to beds. But who knows how long of a lease to sign either? Um, no, not us! Down w/Hurricane Ike! I miss you!!

Samantha said...

Bo sounds like he is so great. Kyle does the exact same thing, saying he doesn't think i'm grumpy when I DEFINITELY am. I'm so happy you have someone so great. And sad that you and carter are bored at home with a baby who likes to take her precious time.

Tiffany Fackrell said...

oh cass that stinks. I understand the taking your sweet time eating. I hate nursing too...shhh...don't tell those nazi nurses!!! Cambree would nurse for like an hour and then she would be done for an hour and then screaming for more, it was insane, and she WOULD NOT take the binky, but I seriously kept trying, it took until she was like 3 or 4 months when she finally took the binky and we were both happier. I even tried weening her to not nurse, but she wouldn't take the bottle either...so just hang in there and keep trying with the binky. Once I even just shoved her thumb in her mouth because I was seriously so done with the nursing thing that day, and i knew she wasn't starving because she had just nursed for an hour. I hope things start to look up for you guys. Are you staying there for the holidays? or are you going back to washington?

Mannclan02 said...

Good to hear from you, Cass. I was talking with Serena last night and we were wondering if you were back in Galveston or still is WA? I'm sorry things seem so dreary there. Could you imagine those people that have seasonal depression. That's got to be a little bit like how it feels. We're always open for a visit, so keep that in mind. Love ya!

Lori said...

It was so fun to see you and the kids and Bo. I'm guessing it will be a while until Galveston is back to normal......remember to take one day at a time, and sometimes one hour at a time if needed. (and by the way, tell Bo Aunt Lori would say....if you want Megan to be nursed, you do it....) It's not as easy for everyone as Bo(or men) may think....

Claudia and Glenn Walker said...

Oh Cass don't be so hard on yourself. I totally understand your feeling. I was the same or worst I even thought on leaving Glenn and going back to Mexico when I had Ian. Glenn has been always the best husband I could even dream of.Stupid hormons. Thank goodness I came to temple for those 2 weeks rememeber and you and Lind were my salvation. You might not know but honestly if you wouldn't come and visit almost everyday I guess I would have kill myself. It's dangerous the position that you have wiht Galveston the way it is and a busy busy husband. Hang in there and take everything out of your chest, that is a good teraphy. However whenever you can be positive and pray pary a lot.

Emily said...

I am seriously thinking about not even pretending to nurse this next baby at all...so I think you are a total mothering super hero! I turn into a crazy lady when I am nursing. The only reason I am still in debate is that I am afraid to tell the nurses after I deliver. I know how cool am I?!?!?! :) If you are jut a little grumpy but sticking with it then you really are a domestic goddess. I am so sad for Galveston! That would really break my heart to see our little town be so ravaged!

The Bruces said...

omg cassidy i totally feel the same way... i hate breastfeeding its messy and gross and not something i'm looking forward to again. i am totally freakin out too cuz i know its going to suck with no sleep and two kids. i'm gonna be right there with you and i think its completely fine to be grumpy every now and then. lol

Jackie said...

HAHA. I know EXACTLY how you feel! Let's trade...

Aika said...

hahah... I understand about the breastfeeding thingy too, not much of a fan of it. I love being free, come on, you carried the baby for nine months. That's just how I feel, but I know how people are about the feeding thing. Anyways, hopefully it gets better and they fix the island. Thank goodness winter is coming and it's going to cool down, can you imagine the heat and having all the garbage? Not fun... Take Care!!!

Justin and Stephanie said...

Wow Cassidy, what a tough cookie you are! I am just getting caught up on my blogs. I cannot believe your adventures. Life sure can be crazy sometimes. You have great stories to tell. A toddler and a newborn in a catastrophe would be a huge challenge. At least everyone has their health. Good Luck babe! You are in our prayers.

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